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        Good morning/afternoon/evening to our principle, XXXXXXX, teachers and all my friend down there (if on stage). Today I'm going introduce one of my best interest, which is also know as animation. Animation will normally be mistaken as cartoon which is a huge mistake. Animation is originally started by Japanese, it is first drawn into pictures with subtitles which is know as Manga. Animation is now known world wide and become a great interest to many teenagers and even adults. What is it so special that make so many people have a great interest in it? Today I will be telling about the reason I am interested in animation and few example will be made according to the animation i had watched.
         Animation is so famous that there is even an event know as 'Cosplaying' held in every country. Cosplay is normaly know as 'costume event' but it is actually people wearing costume of their favourite character. Cosplaying is now know as a international job because many people likes to see their favourite character in human form and so they pay to take a look. Cosplaying events are normally held in a big hall or an open area. Visitors are allow to take pictures with the cosplayers, but permission must be granted before any pictures is being taken. Now days, money that is earn by freshman cosplayer is even better than a freshman doctor. But one must be good in looking to become famous in cosplaying.
          In another way, parents think that watching cartoon is just a waste of time. As I had just explain, cartoon are different from animation. Animation will normally show a life of a character instead of making jokes like 'Tom & Jerry' which always kills each other. Animation will normally show how a person go through hard work to get what their wants. One thing that is interesting about animation is the bond between friends of the main character in the story. Lets take an example, one of the most famous animation know as 'One Piece' tell us a very important moral value, 'Dont Ever Give Up On Your Friends'. This is the motto of the main character Luffy, no matter what happens, he will face all the problem to save his friends.

Weird Dream

   Today I had a weird dream, it it has the same feeling as last time I had this dream. Seems like the same dream just continuing the story. It started outside a big building, I was digging for something. Then I tried a small road to get up the the wall to go inside the mansion. There is a hotel on the left and a school(maybe is school) on the right. The hotel maybe is a 宿舍, I'm not sure. Then I went into the left one and take the lift. I woke up. The 2nd dream is today's one. It started in a small room, I'm readying for school (maybe is inside the hotel or something like that). Then the dream switch into the school, its very very very very big something like a whole taman. And suddenly, something makes me run, maybe is an explosion? I just started running, if I'm not mistaken I also started fighting, I just know that I'm very skilled in fighting (not normal but like super power or something like that) and I running everywhere, trying to find something but I don't remember what it is. Finally the dream changed, it seems like my previous school is boom~ already so I am changed into another school. I'm sitting infront, there is a girl on my left (I don't know her, but in my dream I talked to her like I really know her, I don't remember her face at all zzz) and a guy at my back, he seems to be and ADHD student (over active student). We was all talking until I finally woke up, I don't know why I still remember these dreams cause normally I won't remember anything. I fell in sleep again and had a dream again which I had no idea cause I totally forgot what is that dream, seems to be a fighting dream also. Today will be the weirdest day of my life~(maybe)

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           I wonder why is there so many question in this world, and I just got irritated for no reason and I always got fed up when my life is in pressure. I don't know if I'm a guy that can't accept hard work or that I always live in easy work too much. Hard work for me, is not what we means by using strength too much and got your self tired, is our mentally problem causes by too much of thinking and working. God(I don't know who he is but he is a fair existence, cause he make everything balance) create things in such a way that every human being has their weakness and their talent. Although many people see as that I can understand things and got to solve problem fast, but they don't know being good in IQ doesn't mean that I have a good memory. Malaysia is a country that need memorising in everything, a stupid way of living cause human should be creative not memorise everything and call your self smart. I still have the accept the faith that I live here and I must work for what I wan't and I learn from a good teacher that we should not complain but we should work. I really don't know how to solve the problem of being bad in memorising, what can I really do? I started miserably thinking that I'm so stupid that everyone can memorise things but I'm a stupid dum dum that  can do nothing although I understand things better, I can't explain things in words, I ask my friend, my teacher, even my family..... but the same answer came out, memorise.
            I would not be in headache if all my problem is solve. It is not cause by one major problem but many little problem that shouldn't have been even a big problem but when it all comes together it just became a real problem to me. Firstly is my family, if you ask me do I love my family, I would say yes, but I don't have any prove for that. After some few lesson I started to hate death, this is a problem that can't be deny by every human being since even the sun and earth has their limit. My father, he is a smoker, I talked to him few times but just have some little effect on him. I don't know how he accept about the world. I know that I can't lost him. Then the problem come to my mother, she seems to be always in bad mood this few month and I don't even dare to ask her why. My brother, that moron that also started smoking for no reason but it's his life, I can't anything except telling him what he should but what he want to do is not my business. My younger brother has no problem for me cause he is as playful as always and seems to be normal. My grandmother is old, he love us. I respect her, but the way my brother treated her make me angry every time, I hope I won't lost my temper and hit him one day.
            Today I went for kokurikulum in school, whole day work and I got no time to rest. After I came back from school still have to go for tuition at 7 o'clock till 10 o'clock. When I finally finish my tuition and going back home, my mother was talking to her friend and we started a topic, driving motorcycle. I'm a good driver, my father bought a Kawasaki motor and he told me that he wanted to bring me for a mountain ride one day. I was so happy, until the day he tell us that we won't be riding on motor because it is very dangerous. Today I found out the reason, my mother said that it is because of my brother. He is too naughty and he is causing allot of trouble. If my father let me take my license for motor but don't let my brother, it will cause him to mumble and talk stupid things. So I was not allowed to have license. All my dream since I was a child is to have fun with my father cause he is a very emo man but he is also a very protective man. It was all destroyed by my devil brother that don't even know how to think. But at least I still can take photo with my father when we are free, maybe that's still a way of being together. I hope everything will go well when time passes.
           If any of my friend is reading this, leave a comment please cause I tak tau who got read who doesn't lol = = and this blog has been abandon for so long. Hope there is still someone that remember it although I never tell anyone that I started writing again.

Random Post.......

So long since my last post......  I don't think anyone still remember this or anyone will come back and read this abandoned blog. But I suddenly think of it and come here to 发泄 cause I duno when my brain will explode. Maybe this blog won't be as long and the others but maybe it will be longer cause today I will type everything that just came to my mind. 1st thing of all we have to go back to few months ago. Coach G, my tuition's Sejarah teacher is a very straight guy and he made people to think from some direction. He always talk like gangster to his student that make other teacher thought that he is just a normal coach that teach football but not a teacher. But sometime he talk in a way that make you understands things. He though us that Malaysian ourself always complain about how bad it is, we never really do anything for our self, to change what it is now. At that time there is a Bersih 3.0 or something like that. He went for it and came back and tell us, Malaysian finaly have some xxxxxxx(sensord cause its bad words, just normaly stand for Malaysian is getting brave enough to do something for what they want la) and that plant some though in me that let me think that I must not always complain, why don't I get what I have and create what I don't have? He also plant another thought in us, he is a guy that always pray and thought there is really a god watching us and will guide us. But after he seperate with his x wife(another story maybe will tell later) and he start to think. Thats what I like about him, he always think before he take any action. He went from temple to temple to ask a question, "why?". He got all the same answer he even read the bible, the Quran and anything else from all other relegion. He got his answer, there is no God watching us, just something that create us for some purpose like we created our pen or something. Or maybe create and left us, or maybe we just apear our self, there must be a stop to everything, something must appear naturally to create other things there must be a top stop, if you say there is a God and what if I ask you how God appear and why create it? This make my head explode few times. And so I cannot accept the death of human, even in a game I don't know why. The newspaper also scared me. Human have a nature, they have to pray to something because they them self cannot decide where they are from and why are they here. And when you were pull away from that though you will start to think but you will be corrupted as well like me, sometimes I will just sit there and daydream for something but always don't remember cause it went too far until something like where will human goes when we pass away? And I got part of the answer and some I canot sort out. I ask my self, if human brain is the main thing that control whole of our body, what if we have a full copy and after we died we recreate it. And recreate the same body will the guy that open his eyes is me? Or will it be another guy? Maybe there is really a soul in us, our existence and what we are doing and what we though, the brain will make us do things  its like the brain is a container for the soul, the soul is the petrol for an engine to work but the soul canot effect how well and how the engine will work. Ok I think we should continue with another topic. Lets go back to my coach divorce with his wife. He divorce with his wife is because his wife was a woman that control everything and coach was a blur fellow that allow her to do what she wants and she is a bad woman of course. Coach finally started thinking(I don't know why and when and how) and he divorce and he started a tuition centre. This plant a though in me, we have brains is to think and we canot always do something without thinking. If someone can tell my brother this I would be happy. My brother very 叛逆 one, he always argue with my mother and I thought that is just his 叛逆期， but finally today my father chase him out of the house, what will happen to him? He has been chase out few times already, but always come back. That day he say that I got things better than him from my parents, and had a big fight with my mum. He went out and came back finaly. Today I don't know if he will come back or not, I don't know if my mum already know this cause he is at work or maybe with her friends not yet come home. What will happen to him, will he come back, it feels weird that there is someone in my life's gone, I don't like the feeling. I don't dare to tell any of my friends, if you guys read this you can come talk to me, but if you don't know anything, just assume that I'm talking to a wood cause I watch a movie and got know of 树洞治疗法(绝对商桥) HaHa.... Stop here

Went to Meet Valley With Yap

     Everyday stay at house play computer so boring, finally I decided to go out with my friend. But I did it in a last minute moment. On Friday I ask my friend to go with me to Meet Valley on saturday with me cause I wan buy some anime = =. LALALA~ they all not free and finally Yap say he wan go there buy books so he followed me. The stupid Kiat say he wan dota so I tried to kill him with my water bottle. Yap and I promised to meet at 10.30 morning. So I setted my alarm at 10 o'clock ( I lazy wake up = =) and slept~

    On Saturday Morning, I woke up 9.15 a.m. and these few days I seems weird cause I can wake up even without my alarm. I went for a bath, then fly outside my room and on the computer for no reason = =. My mother tell me to take my Breakfast 1st because she already da bau something for me if I'm not mistaken is Lam Mee(which I doesn't enjoy very much). I ate my breakfast and went into facebook(its already normal thing for me)

    Then I remembered that I got a pro weapon from my friend in Maplesea but my level is not enough so I "didn't" waste my time and open Maplesea to level up. When I totally forgotten about Yap he came and rang my door bell. Then only I realise that its already 10.30 and I faster open the door for him to join me in Maple XD. He came in and sat beside me with the computer and my brother also sitting beside me playing computer. But my brother totally ignore him because its a normal thing that Yap come to my house. He always did that last time but its been a long time since he come to my house.

     I told him to help me continue my game cause I need to finish my Lam Mee faster = =(I didn't even finish my food yet). Finally we finished everything and its 11 o'clock. We went out and wait for a taxi. I wan to thanks God for giving a taxi for me in 1 minutes after we went out. A old man with his taxi come and stop beside us after I waved my hand at him. I open the front door and told him "Meet Valley?". He nodded and we went into the car.

     While we get on the car, I feel happy and tried my best not to make the taxi driver nervous(but I think I'm more nervous then him). I asked him if weather he had start the meter counter or not he pointed at the meter and said "有按了啊" and he kept silent after I showed him a "Ops I didn't see it" face. After few second he started moving the car I put on my seat belt and Yap followed as I did. We kept silent on the way to Meet Valley.

     Its not totally bored while on the car because I use my time to do stupid thing like checking if the car is clean or not = =. I realise that there is a sign in front of the car telling us to put on our seat belt. I feel proud because I'm so disciplined (pui pui ><). Then I realise the taxi's driver driving license. He is a old man and he lived near my house(which I didn't realise at all). I think he and us are both lucky because while he just went out to find a passenger and we just came out to find a taxi and we meet haha~

    After we reached there, I looked at the meter. I remembered its something like RM14.50. I took out RM15 and I thought that I got 50 sens but I don't have and so the taxi driver. Yap tell me its 14.40 but not 14.50 but I don't care because I got only 10 sens in my wallet = =. I finally decided to pay the taxi driver RM15 not need 找(是不是很大方leh?XD). After paying the taxi driver we went into the shopping center.

    The first thing I wanted to do after going into the shopping center is GO TO TOILET~! XD so Yap followed me. After finish kencing = = ( I hate that word it disgust me ) I wanted to wash my hand. I push the thing and nothing happen then only I remembered it is a sensor hand washing machine. So I putted my hand there and tell Yap "pai seh pai seh". We went out to from the Rich Man Toilet and continue our Anime Hunting journey.

    I didn't have any idea where are we going to go, so I and Yap decided to use the best idea. Go to the top floor and come down 1 floor by 1 floor. The top floor is all about entertainment and FOOD~! It was 12.30 when we reached there and so we decided to do the best thing, Lunch Time~. The McDonald should be a good idea before it is crowded by about 20 people waiting to order. And the cinema was also crowded by sea of people. It is really.... how to say..... Sux = =. The top floor is crowded by unknown creature haiz.

    While we walking, I finally found out the reason why there are so many people here. Yap told me that there are people who finished their SPM and already got their result trying to find what they have to do now. So they had a thing like SPM WORK FINDING FAIR = =. All those Form5.1 ppl(cause they finish Form 5 d marh so level up lah Form 5.1)came and deng deng deng dang! I remembered last time that I came with Nesh. We ate somewhere where is very cheap and delicious so I ask Yap to follow me.

    I remember the store is somewhere down stair, we went down and I forgotten where is it. I tried to find it but I realise it had became a Toy For Children shop. I went to find the map and finally found where to eat. We went there and there are many things to order. I wan to tried some new thing and I finally find a shop which sell weird things. I bought his asam rice. Yap bought some weird food like combination of western and asian food. The rice and the sotong is not bad, but the asam is really asli so it tasted so sour.

    After finished eating I went to buy Sprite~ my favourite can drink. So I enjoy my drink because there are no people waiting for place there and it is so empty haha. We finish our water and went back to the map. I want to find the Anime Shop but its gone cause I remember it is somewhere up stair but just now I didn't see it. I saw the map and followed it and finally know that the store Jab Lap d. Haiz such pitty.

    So I wasted my time to come here but I still remember that we have to go for the book shop because Yap still have to buy some book. So we went there, the road to there seems forever cause I feel like walking so long but still I not yet reach there and finally we reached. The book shop is so big and I can find all the book I want but not all the book Yap want. Yap cant find his book and only can find book for SPM and I founded my Percy Jackson had change new cover but still there is no new book.

    Time wasted again but at least I know that Rick Riordan had change his book cover. I walked randomly with Yap and asked him 1 question,"you want go times square I wan buy something" and he say he don't wan because he had nothing to buy there. But actually the main reason I want to go Times Square is because of Sungai Wang and the Times Square is just beside Sungai Wang but I thought it will be easy for him to understand if I say I wan go to Times Square.

    I finally say that I want to go Sungai Wang and so he pulled me and say"ok ok faster gogo"(walao so fast change mind one meh). We took another taxi there, before we took the taxi we was suppose to check for the train if it can reach TS or not. But sadly it didn't even touch Pudu. So we are force to take another taxi to TS. This time the taxi driver is a Chinese Man. I ask Yap to seat in front this time cause I lazy or I.... don't know lah just don't feel like sitting.

    The taxi driver thought I don't know how to speak chinese because Yap spoke BM with him. He speak with me in English that the door not yet close probably but I reply him in chinese and he feel shame = =. This time the journey to TS doesn't seems forever because I tot we reached there in a blink of my eye. Maybe because I'm too exited to buy my anime.

    We went into Sungai Wang and I remembered where we have to go because I came here with my friend already few times. We went to the duno how many floor but I remember how to go and I finally found the Anime shop. But there was not DVD that I want so I go to the other shop and find but that shop never sell DVD. So I went back to the shop and ask yap to ask him.

    I wanted to buy "The Melecoly Of Haruhi Suzumiya" and Yap told him the name but that guys seems only know anime in their chinese names. He asked me to write down the name and he called someone. It takes me about 5 minutes for the guy to come and give me the DVD. It cost me RM40 and the best thing is it contain 3 version of the anime. The 1st version is the normal version which I wanted to buy, the second version is the Q version which I don't even know it exist but still I'm happy with it and finally is the movie version which I already bought 1 with RM10 at Comic Fiesta zzz.

   After buying things Yap want to go for another anime costume shop to check something so I followed him. After checking we decided to go Lauyat to eat the MageeMee XD its cheap and delicious but expencive. We went there and I ordered a TomYamSup mee and yap GonLouMee. After enjoying our food we wanted to go back and register for a new tuition. We rush back, we try our best to go to the bus stop in the fastest way we can. After we reach the bus stop I wan to thanks the God again for letting just to wait 5minutes for the bus. 

    We took the bus back and the bus also pass my father's shop. I showed Yap but Yap himself also know where my father's shop is. After we reach Suntex we walk to my house. I sat in front of my computer again and yap was also beside me. I continue to play my game until Yap remind me about the registeration. We didn't realise 1 problem until we call our pro friend Ravi. We asked him where the hell is that tuition center and he say its very hard to say. And like this Yap and I decided to register only on Tuesday which is today.

    Tomorrow I'm going to start my Sejarah tuition which is a hell for me cause I hated Sejarah very much. I like history but not about those Islam thingi lol. I think I'm going to stop here, if I continue writing it will reach 2 more pages haha. Bye Bye blog

LALALA~ Its About My Favourite Teacher, She's Sick = = God Bless

        Its been a long time, but still I can remember that day. Its a April afternoon of 2008, my mum bring me to a music center. Its not my wish, but still my mum force me to go. I went for a register, Uncle James,the 'boss'(maybe = =) tell me that I can start my tuition tomorrow which is a Wednesday. After that day, I went to tuition at 8.00 p.m.. The teacher is known as Mrs.Wong which is Uncle James wife. When I go in, she ask me to seat beside Shum Kah Hee, he was a 6E class student which is the best class in my Primary school. I sat beside him as she told me to, I was so nervous. And Mrs.Wong say "Okey, what school you are from? I heard it from your mother that you are from Chinese school, can u speak English?" Maybe I was so nervous, I tried to be friendly, I noded and say "yes, I can speak English". She stare at me with a smile of satisfaction.
        And she started teaching us Grammar and many thing else....... (only this part I cant remember because I'm not a super fantastic student = =). I'm still not familiar with the student beside me, he looks unfriendly and weird. Thats what I think of him, but it was not who he was. When the teacher went out of the class, the whole class start talking except one weird Indian girl behind, I think because he don't like us. And KH(Shum Kah Hee = = I lazy type his name)is the most friendly and funny guy in the class. He started greeting me and ask me alot of question about school(you know lah he same school with me). And suddently, I realise that there is a girl that looks familiar sitting behind me that I never notice, he tapped me at the shoulder and Called my name. LOL~ she was my classmate(now also same class with me). And now I feel more 'home' cause at least I know someone and I had a Crazy Friendly Fellow sitting beside me.
         Its been a long time, many of the students leave the class and many more things happened. From 9 students we had became 5 students(A new guy also, I counted him because if not it will be 4 person only). But the teacher is still teaching us, she is very friendly, very patience. She teach in a way which will never ever make you boring because he always tell you about story of her life or maybe about the world now. She says, this is the best way of learning English, 'Read more, Speak More, Learn More' is her style. She look young but she is already 80+ years old. I'm happy to see her look healthy. One day, she fell from her chair while doing house work, we was all so scared and we call her to check up. It takes two weeks for us to meet her again, after his leg is cure but still she have to wear a bandage.
         Want to know how we meet her? I was shock when she call us to go for tuition on Wednesday, I never think of she getting cure so fast, when we reach there, she is holding two stick and walking. When she saw us, she broke us a smile. And I was stunned because we totally have nothing to say. From that day on, this tells me that she is a very very very responsible teacher. She told us that she is not very good going up the stairs, but only that day. She tells us to go to her house for a tuition. We went to her house on the next Wednesday. Her house was like..... A super House Of Nature which only seems to build in the old London, It was so beautiful, so neat, so...... (nah~! I lazy explain go see ur self).
          We start helping her to do some housework when we are free(still in class time, she just ask for our help). After 1 month having tuition in the house, we finally can go back to our old tuition center. And one day, she tell us that next week we have to cancel our class because she had a surgery, stomach surgery. So we missed one more class like that~ When we reach Form 2, I still remember The Phantom Of The Opera, she explain it very well and also she read the book with us, together. After we finish the book, she wan us to understand the settings. She let us watch 'The Phantom Of The Opera', haha nice movie but alot of opera song singing here and there.
          It took us two day just to finish the movie. After 2 days of tuition which is two weeks cause 1 week once we had a tuition, and at the third day. There is a new student(the fellow that I said I counted him) came. He was a fat....not fat a huge guy with spec. He is also friendly, and thats when we started having 5 members in our class. The class continue very well and when we reach Form 3, thats when we say that we have to get A in our PMR. Because if 5 of us get A in PMR our teacher will belanja us eat crab~ Yummy~. And we just study study study(me no lah = = I'm super lazy, I only went for tuition and study).
          After we get our PMR result, we went for the tuition(Wednesday). We shared our result and, poof~ we all get A~ Huala! But none of us remember that we can makan crab~ And a girl drew a crab and show me( the one same class with me ). At, first I don't understand what she meant but he said with a low voice "crap arh" and wakaka I told the teacher about that. The teacher said "Good! Lucky u tell me, if not after I do the surgery I canot eat anymore seafood. So next week you all come to my house and eat ok? Because the following week I'm going to have my eye surgery". All of us agreed.
           On that day, we all gathered at the tuition center and the teacher send us to her house(lalala, we meet again Super House Of Nature). We talk about jokes and teacher teach us about the English Culture of eating. We learn and we ate as she want haha~. My friend took some stupid picture of mind so did I took some stupid picture of him = =. That day was very fun and the crab is super tasty(oh no my saliva is coming out). After that week, my teacher went for her eye operation. It took few week for her to cure.
           And this Wednesday, I went to tuition. We was studying and sharing jokes as normal time. The teacher tell us some weird stuff that she normally never did. I just listen and didn't ignore cause it just impossible for me to ignore it. And when she reach a sentence"and that day the doctor told me that they can do nothing....." and she broke a cry. All of us are shocked. She told us to keep that to ourself and dont tell anybody else. Cause she don't want her family to get worried.
            I and my classmate(two of them same class and same tuition with me now) which is same tuition as me, are shocked. But when we reached school, we never talked about it cause all of us also try to ignore. And every night, I pray to the god. I dont know who is he and I dont even seen him before but I wan to tell him. Whoever your are, please help her. You never showed up in my life I dont know weather I can believe you or not but just please, bless her.......

我不是我想要的我，但是我还是我，但是我又不想做现在的我

Today also got tuition, haiz.......... Went to tuition cause I like to there for no reason. Ok now talk about the Past~ Form 1, I went to school with my mum the 1st day. I sat at the front row with no one beside me. Suddenly got 1 guy came and sat beside me. He is Lim thats what he told me. In the starting time we always quarrel with each other but we are still friend cause I always forgive him. Then I change class from Cekal to Budi (going up not down). Then I known JVK the pro~ Haha and then I known Ravikaant ^^. And also Gig! We are known as the 四大天王 cause we always 捣乱 in the class haha no do homework, talk in class when teacher teaching until teacher marah and call the guru disipline XD. That time four of us are the most most most best friend when we are in trouble we help each other. Until the last day, we were separate cause of my BM getting D. I went down to Cekal and JVK Budi, Ravikaant and Gig Bakti. Then I met with my most best friend in my life, Simeon. We do things together everyday, I feeling happy and not getting betrayed by friend when I'm with him, sometime I also quarrel with him but after 30minutes we will be ok again XD. That part of my life is so heaven /.\ and the heaven falls when I got known that he went to Sarawak and canot come back until Form 5. I went to form 3 with my X classmate Ravi Gig and JVK. We are not like last time any more. My gang change to Akihiro Lulu's gang which is also Lim's gang. Mid year time, we all are anti LLH gang, we always find stupid way to do stupid things to him. And somthing stupid happened and I hated Lim. Lulu was the middle ppl so I pitty him = =. That was the suckest life I ever had. That time I still dun watch K-ON and I was playing band with Yap only but no Super Band XD. Until 1 day I, Yap and Nesh meet in the toilet and saw the K-ON picture and then we started band together, I started watching K-ON and I become eddicted to Japan. We started so noob, then we getting better and better. Lim was my X drumer and I ask Yap to choose me or Lim to stay = = I think he is regret cause.... I will explain later. He choose me, we stay and we found Kiat the genius and so Ravi that interested in drum. The form 3 life after PMR is OMG FANTASTIC we all are so gila. Then we went up to December, we went to the same tuition together. So we started everything earlier than the others. Starting time we are like normal life but until something stupid happend. This is what I wished for when I'm form 3 but thats no I want now. All my subjects I suddenly can be so Pro I dun even have to study just read and got it. Like I'm been bless by the God or something else I was happy when starting. All my friends come to my house I always teach them, and yap started to be strange and not friendly..... he was my best best friend that time and I feel nervous and awkward >< I found out everthing 2day, maybe because I'm being too good and I started become LC, I realize that but I'm just joking with them. 2day I tell to my self in the heart, and maybe the God heard me. I say "I dont want to become the Pro Kong which every body get nears me for reason, I wan to be the Noob Kong that always have friends with me and that help me when I needed them but not I help them and they think I'm stupid I dont want to become smart suddenly I want to be a normal person, someone that needed to study to improve not sleep until tuition time go tuition get 100% for exam!!!!!!!!!!!". Then, I started to get slow and all my quetions gets wrong, all my friends are faster than me I dont know why I do many careless mistaks like last time. I hope not because I have no mood doing that time so I wrong, I hope because I regret for what I want from the God and the God took back the stupid wisdom and bring me back my friend. Haiz~