Why

The world is making it really hard for me to live. Why...... Why why why why why why why is it always me. Am I being punished? There is just no more meaning in life. Society is cruel, humans are cruel, I can never understand this selfishness. I didn't wanted to come back, but this is just too much pain. Please, God, if you are real please fix this, I don't know what you want, please give him back. If you are real why are you making me suffer so much? I'm not asking for anything from you, I'm working my ass off everyday trying to he nice, all I wanted was to be happy, why are you making this so hard for me. I'm tired, so tired of living, of feeling this pain over and over and over and over.