I don't understand....... I'll make people hates me, someone please read it......

I'm going to die soon....... I really don't understand human, sometimes I doubt we are the same species........  we are so blind, seeing only what we desire, judging people according to the majority instead of the truth, killing one another because of so call 'God'. I think it is a good thing if we extinct, developing a superb brain but deny to use it, given the ability to choose but throwing it away, I use to be so stupid, but I've grown out of it, so why aren't other's doing so? As I learn more the more I feel I can't judge, people don't change, they are born to be like that. I don't have to change anyone, but I really want to find someone like me, I'm so out of this world......... Are people like me but deny to change? Or am I different and I have to change? Why can't people accept things, either live in fantasy and faith for a happy life, or blame life for what they have to face. Just change and fight on........ I don't want to be alone, I am not alone but I feel like no one is standing with me, no one understands me......